It’s a beautiful rainy day in southern Illinois. So I have time to play some needed catch-up on some paperwork and to write a quick post. I apologize for the lapse in freebies, they will be back very soon.
For the past few weeks I have been contemplating the quote by Hermann Hesse, “Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go.” I have realized that I have been holding on to something for way too long. I have learned that I can’t make decisions for other people, no matter what my motive. I cannot make people do the right thing. And I cannot protect someone from themselves. I also have came to realize I think all people are genuinely good, and this is not the case most of the time. This came to me as a kind of epiphany. It doesn’t make me happy, but it at least gives me some closure. Now, time to move on.
Moving on means establishing obtainable goals, formulating a plan and then sticking to it. I’m working on that right now. It’s a work in progress, as am I, and hopefully it will come to fruition soon. Maybe I need to change jobs, change towns, or just change my attitude. All of those choices require a lot of thought and way too much effort. But, I’m a 40ish woman, who is strong, smart and very resourceful. I’ve been thru worse and I will get thru this.